We should have each other with tea.

I know I should be revising. but we finally got the table outside and it was so pretty.

where art thine eyes, sister?

there we go.

I did this elephant in physics class because I am so lost now. :( There's no link between physics and the elephant but the elephant's been in my brain for a while.

I love my family.

YOG is finally over and might I say it's just about the most amazing experience I've ever had. I learnt so much (and I'm not just saying it). I really want to go into detail and all.. but that deserves a post of its own. I was so depressed to be back in school yesterday; the environment felt so stifling and rigid. but then again, I love my friends I really really do; and I appreciate everybuddy so much. I guess I'll be where I need to be, and continue doing my best.

Speaking of which. I need to revise for social studies. omg, so lost so lost.

Party at Toa Payoh Sports Hall tomorrow night. SO PSYCHED.

(but it also means my last official time meeting all the sports presenters :( oh no.)

It's a matter of habit and choice

I have been too busy with random things that all these rubbish-cool events have been piling up my head and disappearing behind truckloads of broadbeans and ice cream. There have been many significant cool stuff happening over the course of x weeks, and I don't even know where to begin?!

I was looking through pictures and I guess my pictures before the (faux) explosion is a good place to begin, such cute images. :D will only post the one with jacob, ju, jean and me innit because it's less pictures to go.

so cute.

Anyway, recently I have been preoccupied with pointless things like painting rainbows and singing musical notes out a straw. but really, I'm somewhat worried that I'm busying myself with things that aren't as important as maybe, my grades. For one, I haven't been giving a shit about lessons, it's so easy to detach myself from what the teacher is saying and that worries me. Coming home is just a good long rest for me too, and revision never ever crosses my mind. Every time I do think of revision though, the thought kind of scares me because there's so much to do (and I know this is why I should begin revision soon) and I don't know where to begin. I spend my time browsing facebook, reading other people's blogs, admiring/gawking at the people on lookbook.nu, tumblr... maybe reading?

(okay on hindsight, I do listen in class most of the time but I never revise. really.)

so what I'm worried about is that by the time I realise how little time I have left it's going to be too late. and right now, look what I'm doing again. procrastinating. I should really be filing my chinese shit right now. but I can't even find a decent hole puncher at home because I left the good one in school (yes, the one you've been using. the seemingly ownerless one.) I'll just bring all the worksheets to school tomorrow to show her I tried... which is true. I sat and tried to hole punch everything till I realised the hole puncher was crap.

As it is I have not enough time. YOG rehearsals begin in a week. I'm verrrry excited but for some reason, at this moment, I feel very detached from it all. What am I even supposed to be doing? I don't really want to screw up I want to make this good...

we had a long weekend, national day holiday, but I didn't do anything productive. I wasted the time away at marina bay sands (which is not to say I did not enjoy it. I enjoyed it tremendously) and it feels inappropriate. sometimes I just think that it would be so much easier not to care about my studies... BUT I CAN'T. it's innate.

damn.

What I really want to be doing

Once again, I find myself doing everything but what I should be doing. Except right now, I can't think of what I should be doing. Of course, there's my social studies PT to do, but there's time.

I just want to waste my days away and be beautiful.

Last night, I was thinking, what am I doing wasting the days I have to not-be in school uniform wearing t-shirts and shorts and looking so boring (alright, to be fair I do not wear t-shirtsanymore because they bore me) when I should be grabbing every bloody chance to dress up and looking insane just because I can?

I could be shocking the neighbourhood and the congregation (haha, in church) with my dressing, and I don't even need to be trashy or prostitutey! I only get 2 days every week. Iwantto while away my time while reading good books or watching DVDs that are NC16 just because I can; but I want to do this with all my friends so if I quit school I'm taking them all with me.

Hi Jean, Jacob, Julia. We quit school k.

On top of that I've got a camera and I haven't done much with it (okay, maybe I have) but I could be doing so much and bringing so much pretty to the world. I also want to make beautiful music or just listening and appreciating good music.

this sums it up pretty well.

On another note, I enjoy hanging out with my family very much. We are very funky people.

this is my sister singing to herself

this is my mother

this is clarinda, zhu's favourite girlfriend

this is louisa, my other cousin

and this is boy boy and my fat ass.

and this is me in a sweater in 34 degrees celsius weather

Time for dinner.

I'm feeling a bit vain right now

and so I'm going to post pictures of myself. Somehow the atmosphere in London makes/made me feel pretty (I am currently in warm-cold-wet Singapore).

why do I live in a tropical country again?

good night.

Someone drain her money

There's really nothing to get me typing like an irritating person.

Today I met a really annoying lady in Karen Miller: England. So I was shopping with my mom and I was sooo sooo tired, and there were these big cushy chairs in the store. but alas, there sits a lady chatting on her phone on one cushion; and BEHOLD: all her bloody shopping bags were on the OTHER chair. So I stared at her and she looked at me and she IGNORED me. and so I tried to make it a bit more obvious by sitting on the corner of that chair and she looked over at me and left the bags on anyway. I wanted to slap her so badly and/or ask her if she had the decency to put her bags on the floor.

Why didn't I do it?

okay, today jian wen said he wanted a sugar mummy to leech off and do whatever and I know I was very disapproving. but hello, I have decided that if you are going to get a sugar mummy can you please pick this lady she's not very ugly but she has big hips and I hope you drain every cent from her so she has no money to buy things in big bulky shopping bags to steal seats from me and be inconsiderate.

Forgive me

but I think I'm a really annoying person and I get annoyed easily at people for reasons I think are reasonable but probably invisible to others.

and hi mei I think you get it the worst, so sorry (for the past, present, and future). I love you (really).

I wanna be badass

I wanna get blonde highlights.