Lighthearted

I realise the past 2 posts have been very heavy and thought-loaded haha. I'm o.k. now. :)

It's the holidays and yesterday was my sister's birthday. she had 4 cakes.

F.O.U.R CAKES WTS but they were all so cute I didn't really get photos of everything and I'm so lazy to click the upload button. her birthday was so grand and lovely, some luxurious bigass dinner with friends. i'm so glad because I had a good time catching up with yanting and louisa (you stupid girls keep me out of the loop for the longest time).

for the next week I will be in pre-u sem, something i'm pretty psyched about hehe. I hope everything turns out well, and maybe I should start packing.

so many exciting things in june!!!! <3

Inconsequential

There is only the self.

There is rarely any point in trying to make others understand. It makes you feel better to think that when someone knows what you're feeling they could sympathize. You feel frustrated when someone gets something wrong, when they misunderstand - but it's nobody's fault. There is an infinite number of facets to our thoughts, which makes it nearly impossible for anyone to fully comprehend our train of thought. Hell, it's difficult enough to understand yourself, why start on others?

Whatever happens to you is, at the end of the day, inconsequential to others. They can sympathize, even empathize, but to feel anything for your circumstances is merely a cathartic experience that they can easily remove themselves from.

You are your own problem.

Tension

I would like to remove myself from society so there are no obligations to please or match the expectations of anyone. At this point of time all relationships feel superficial and everything we do seem subject to the interpretation and judgement of others. I am beginning to forget what genuine friendship feels like, where there is unconditional understanding, no imposition of expectations on a person's behaviour. I would like to ignore the effects of my behaviour and actions on people, to stop worrying for now.

I don't want to be expected to behave in anyway; can I take a break now?

because this is so so tiring.

peace in solitude.