Thinking.
I don't think I'm the same person I was before I started JC. I used to be a lot more carefree. thought less. Now it seems not a day passes without me having some thought or the other weighing me down. at some point of the day. It doesn't even have to be any actual thought; everything just feels quite dull.
There's tension, there's school. I miss being relaxed and not having to worry about anything.
right now my grades suck, I have not enough time on my hands and I'm drained; but I'm still online wasting my time. don't really care.
don't want to care.
sometimes I wonder what'd happen if I just upped and left everything.
I'm not depressed though, there are good moments. very very good moments. occasionally.
just thinking. just thought I'd put this down.
