Hop on the train and never look back

My end of year assessments have begun and before I know it it will be over. Took my English comprehension paper and Social Studies paper (see the caps, such respect) today, as well as my French prelim orals (totally fruked that one up). But see, the ride's begun and there's no looking back.

"I don't really want to go to sleep because it just brings tomorrow closer. The beginning of the end."

"but it also brings the day after closer. The end of the end."

Keep calm carry on

It really is over. I'm so depressed. just got back from the party and had lotza fun with my friends friends friends, whom I have no official reason to meet again. :(

haha kenneth.

okay so that was pretty random. but it's cute.

so where do I go from here?

We should have each other with tea.

I know I should be revising. but we finally got the table outside and it was so pretty.

where art thine eyes, sister?

there we go.

I did this elephant in physics class because I am so lost now. :( There's no link between physics and the elephant but the elephant's been in my brain for a while.

I love my family.

YOG is finally over and might I say it's just about the most amazing experience I've ever had. I learnt so much (and I'm not just saying it). I really want to go into detail and all.. but that deserves a post of its own. I was so depressed to be back in school yesterday; the environment felt so stifling and rigid. but then again, I love my friends I really really do; and I appreciate everybuddy so much. I guess I'll be where I need to be, and continue doing my best.

Speaking of which. I need to revise for social studies. omg, so lost so lost.

Party at Toa Payoh Sports Hall tomorrow night. SO PSYCHED.

(but it also means my last official time meeting all the sports presenters :( oh no.)

It's a matter of habit and choice

I have been too busy with random things that all these rubbish-cool events have been piling up my head and disappearing behind truckloads of broadbeans and ice cream. There have been many significant cool stuff happening over the course of x weeks, and I don't even know where to begin?!

I was looking through pictures and I guess my pictures before the (faux) explosion is a good place to begin, such cute images. :D will only post the one with jacob, ju, jean and me innit because it's less pictures to go.

so cute.

Anyway, recently I have been preoccupied with pointless things like painting rainbows and singing musical notes out a straw. but really, I'm somewhat worried that I'm busying myself with things that aren't as important as maybe, my grades. For one, I haven't been giving a shit about lessons, it's so easy to detach myself from what the teacher is saying and that worries me. Coming home is just a good long rest for me too, and revision never ever crosses my mind. Every time I do think of revision though, the thought kind of scares me because there's so much to do (and I know this is why I should begin revision soon) and I don't know where to begin. I spend my time browsing facebook, reading other people's blogs, admiring/gawking at the people on lookbook.nu, tumblr... maybe reading?

(okay on hindsight, I do listen in class most of the time but I never revise. really.)

so what I'm worried about is that by the time I realise how little time I have left it's going to be too late. and right now, look what I'm doing again. procrastinating. I should really be filing my chinese shit right now. but I can't even find a decent hole puncher at home because I left the good one in school (yes, the one you've been using. the seemingly ownerless one.) I'll just bring all the worksheets to school tomorrow to show her I tried... which is true. I sat and tried to hole punch everything till I realised the hole puncher was crap.

As it is I have not enough time. YOG rehearsals begin in a week. I'm verrrry excited but for some reason, at this moment, I feel very detached from it all. What am I even supposed to be doing? I don't really want to screw up I want to make this good...

we had a long weekend, national day holiday, but I didn't do anything productive. I wasted the time away at marina bay sands (which is not to say I did not enjoy it. I enjoyed it tremendously) and it feels inappropriate. sometimes I just think that it would be so much easier not to care about my studies... BUT I CAN'T. it's innate.

damn.