Saturday, August 20, 2011

Y'know

Just in case whoever still reads this thinks I'm suffering from severe chronic (does that even make sense?) depression or something, I don't. haha, it's just that I never feel a need to purge (my feelings) when I'm feeling happy. or something.

but I'd just thought I'd share this:

it's beautiful

This, my friends, is Goldkenn's Remy Martin liquor bar. which is actually very interesting because it's filled with actual champagne inside that delectable chocolate. I was surprised. This is also beginning to sound like an advertorial, which it's not.

Moving on.

Remember how it's during these most inappropriate times that I come up with the most time-consuming and retarded ideas? Or maybe just how I come up with the most time-wasting ideas when there is no time.

like, at this very moment I just remembered I have a lit assignment due tomorrow (I assume by midnight because there was no specification for time hehe), but I'm going to tell errbuddy about some fancy idea I came up with. It's hardly original, but I want to make a blog and post videos of my sis and I singing and doing stupid things (not exhaustive, of course, actually I'd open it up to anyone, we can share :> maybe.), partially because I finally figured out how nuffnang works (shut up); cos I figured, why not make the best of my youth and embarrass myself now instead of 20 years down the road when I'm too old and fat and wrinkly to do so?

but it's just an idea. I guess I was also inspired by the funny video of my mom and I in the car in the post below this one. hehe.

I have so many things to be grateful for, like how I'm an OGL now (excited!!!!) and how street is preparing for our concert next year and how I'm (hopefully) improving in my studies? That last one is a big fat hugeass maybe, but still, I'm hopeful. so my worries are just going to have to take a backseat, and hopefully they'll work themselves out.

no use worrying or letting things eat at you now.

I am looking forward to performing at some busking thing outside wisma on the 27th (next sat!) and also for teacher's day. I sincerely hope I do not screw up but I think I'll also take it in my stride, whatever happens. hahahhahahhahhaha fingers crossed.

AND GUYS I AM GOING FOR PARAMORE TMR FOR FREE.

just sayin.

So My Mom Said

I shouldn't publish this on facebook.

Saturday, August 13, 2011

I just wish

Let me be,

because I am a ticking time bomb that doesn't know when it will explode.

So for now let me dwell in what I am and Do Not Touch.

There are things that make my everyday wonderful, and for once I would like to spend a day just dwelling in it all without having something to dampen my spirits. I am sick of having my mood affected by parasitic thoughts that take up so much of my time and energy. Nothing good ever comes out of it. It is futile; but I do it anyway.

I want to be selfish. I want to ignore the fact that everyone else has feelings too. I want to stop caring.

but I can't.

so I guess the next best thing to do would be to just back away, remove myself. If I don't see it, it isn't there.