I just wish

Let me be,

because I am a ticking time bomb that doesn't know when it will explode.

So for now let me dwell in what I am and Do Not Touch.

There are things that make my everyday wonderful, and for once I would like to spend a day just dwelling in it all without having something to dampen my spirits. I am sick of having my mood affected by parasitic thoughts that take up so much of my time and energy. Nothing good ever comes out of it. It is futile; but I do it anyway.

I want to be selfish. I want to ignore the fact that everyone else has feelings too. I want to stop caring.

but I can't.

so I guess the next best thing to do would be to just back away, remove myself. If I don't see it, it isn't there.